I should probably be scared, but I’m so lost, nothing seems to be registering. I would also like to have a job I actually enjoy. Being young sucks. I just want to crawl inside a book or step into a movie; these are the things that are responsible for my deluded perception of reality, anyway.
I don’t know what I’m doing with my life
Life goes on whether you feel like you can’t move because you are so inconsolably depressed, or whether you are insatiably happy. Everything moves constantly and with such speed that by the time you actually come around to noticing it, you feel like so much has happened and that you might have missed something important. I don’t want to just exist. I want to live. Maybe it’s harder that way, but I’m going to try. All the negativity that I suffocate myself with has gotten old and it really isn’t very productive. I hate self-loathing, so I’m going to try and be better rather than just talking about it. It’s okay if I am disliked for being myself because, really, that is still infinitely better than pretending to be someone that I am not. My motto from now on should be: good books, good music, good friends, and good wine. I will not be afraid to challenge myself, and I will not hold myself back because I am uncertain or fearful of doing something. I’ll take failure if it means that I am actually out there doing something. I am going to let myself live my life the way that I want to.
Letting Myself Go
"Pack a pillow and blanket and see as much of the world as you can. You will not regret it."
- Jhumpa Lahiri, The Namesake
"I regret that it takes a life to learn how to live."
- Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close
“Skateboarding in New York City,” 1965; Photographed by Bill Eppridge for Life Magazine
"He looked as though his life had not only passed him by but paused along the way to spit in his face."
- David Sedaris
"Being a woman is a terribly difficult task, since it consists principally in dealing with men."
- Joseph Conrad
"Don’t pass it by—the immediate, the real, the only, the yours."
- Henry James
"I call people rich when they’re able to meet the requirements of their imagination."
- Henry James, The Portrait of a Lady
"That is part of the beauty of all literature. You discover that your longings are universal longings, that you’re not lonely and isolated from anyone. You belong."
- F. Scott Fitzgerald
